(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 3: Being Honest With Myself

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VICTORIA

When I saw Victoria I just looked at her with a blank stare, then put my head down. She walked over to me placing her hand on my back, “What’s wrong Christina?”

I stood there with my head down for a few seconds then said, “Nothing”.

“I don’t think running to the bathroom when you see your ex is nothing”

I had nothing to say.

“This is about him right?”

“I love my Milkshake”

“What?”

“Nothing, I need to talk to him”, I said in guilt.

“He’s in the other room” Victoria said pointing to the door.

“Do you think I’m pathetic?”

“What? No. If you want him back you need to let him know”

I stood up straight fixing myself up in the mirror, “your right”. Victoria and I made our way back to our table with the girls. I noticed two big bottles of Ciroc on the table, one of which Briana was pouring in a cup of ice.

“Damn girl you trying to get someone drunk?”, Victoria said taking the bottle from her and pouring some in a cup laughing.

“Girl I didn’t buy these bottles, Trey sent it over here with a note saying ‘To My Milkshake’. He thinks I’m his milkshake”, Briana said smiling.

“What?”, Victoria said confused.

Robin said laughing, “Exactly V” Then looked at Briana, “who the hell told you he sent it over here for you?”

“I’m damn sure he didn’t send it for you, besides me and Trey had a connection the last time we spoke”, Briana said dreamy.

Victoria began laughing hysterically while looking at me. Whenever Victoria laughs like this it means she find out something before everyone else could figure it out, and it really did make whoever was speaking feel foolish.

Debby asked, “Why are you laughing like that?”

“Because Briana always thinks men want her”

“If it wasn’t for me then who could it be for” Briana asked.

I enjoyed listening to Briana go on and on about how Trey called her his milkshake. Sometimes I think this girl just talks to hear herself speak.

“I don’t think it matters who it’s for just enjoy the drinks” I said trying to end the argument.

“Oh course you would say that” Robin said smiling

“Excuse me? What does that mean?”

“Don’t worry about it” Robin said rolling her eyes.

If only she knew who the bottles were sent for, she would die. As much as I wanted to see her reaction when she found out it was me. I couldn’t give her the satisfaction.

“Do you always have to be a bitch” I said irritated.

“Yeah, it’s in my DNA” Robin said

“Shut up” Victoria responded

Robin had nothing to say to Victoria. It was amazing to see how Robin would keep her mouth shut if Victoria told her too, but it wasn’t only her all the girls were afraid of Victoria. I never understood why because she’s the sweatiest person. I felt a vibration from my phone when I looked to see who was calling, I noticed it was only a text. Of course I knew who it was, but I was afraid to read the message, why? I have no idea. The message read “You look beautiful tonight”. I couldn’t hold back my smile. I put my head up and looked in Trey’s direction to see him smiling back at me. Trey typed something in his phone then looked back at me. Just then a message came to my phone “I miss your smile”. I didn’t respond then I got another message saying “you’re not going to respond?”. So I decided to respond saying “I need to talk to you”. I wasn’t sure if that was a good idea but at this point I don’t care what’s wrong or right. Seconds later I got a response saying “Same here”. At that moment I wanted to leave the club. I didn’t care to be there. I just needed to be with Trey.

What I’m going to say next is completely honest. I have no idea what happen from the point when I got the text message to when Trey came knocking at my door. I opened the door not knowing what to expect. Trey and I stood there looking at one another for a few seconds before letting himself in the house closing the door behind him.

To Be Continued…

(Its Because I Love You) Chapter 2: My Life Is Now Upsidedown

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As I sat on my couch with a glass of wine in hand, my phone rings taking from the memories of that night. When I looked at the phone, it read Gabby. I had no interest to hear what she had to say but as I sat there watching the phone ring and finally picked it up.

“Hello”, I mumbled annoyed

“You coming tonight?” she said happily in a loud background.

“No”, I said frustrated

“Why not…You know what, hold that thought, and open the door I’m outside”

“What? Why?”

“Just open the door”

When I opened the door standing there was Gabby, Briana, Victoria, Robin, and Debby. I didn’t know why they were all determined, to get me to go out the house.

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Debby

“Get dressed”, Briana said forcefully.

“I don’t want to go” I replied.

“Why not?” Victoria whined.

“I just don’t feel like it”, I said

“Since when do you not feel like partying?” Laughed Robin

“Tonight”

“You have to” Debby said.

“Why do you insist I go?” I said wondering.

“Business baby girl” Debby answered.

“You do know there isn’t going to be anyone there worth your time, Right?” I replied.

“You don’t know that, maybe someone Trey is with…” Debby said.

“Oh no you know the rules you don’t settle for anybody. If it’s not the best then leave it where it stands” Robin preached.

“Preach sista, don’t let physical attraction cloud your mind to the purpose of our job” Gabby added.

Victoria interjected, “I don’t know what you’re talking about but, I want to go out to have fun for a change, no work involved and to be honest Christina you need to have fun. You work more than all of us. I don’t even know if you have a personal life anymore”.

Victoria knew the most about me out of the four of them. She knew about me and Trey and kept it to herself. So I would have to agree with her. Ever since Trey and I broke it off, I’ve been working longer and harder to avoid thinking about him but nothing or no one seemed to fill the void. I’m miserable and Victoria knows it.

“Okay fine I’ll go, now leave me along”. I said going into my room.

When we got to the club there was a line wrapped around the block. As we walked to the front of the line, we were automatically let in. Our job did have some perks and we took full advantage of them all. Gabby had gotten us a table, so as soon as we walked in we made our way to our table. The club was already packed and they were still letting people in. I was glad Gabby had gotten us a table ahead of time. Trey of course wasn’t there yet. My phone began ringing and a smiley face appeared on the screen.

Robin picked up my phone and said, “Smiley face, really? Is this work?”

I grabbed the phone out of her hand, “Mind your business”

“Someone’s getting busy with work”, Robin joked

Victoria defended Christine, “you’re the last one who should be talking about getting busy with work. That’s your hobby”.

All the girls started laughing which ended up making Robin upset.

“It was just a joke, calm down”, Victoria laughed.

I then began getting text messages, “Hey baby Wassup. I’m in town tonight I want to see you” and “I miss you”. As I read the messages I was confused. He broke it off with me and now he’s telling me he misses me. I slipped my phone to Victoria under the table so she could read the messages. After reading the messages she looked up, slipped me the phone and said, “Speaking of the devil”. I turned around to see Trey walking in with his entourage. The moment everyone saw, Trey cameras went crazy and female’s dresses got shorter.

When Trey and I were in a relationship we didn’t make public appearances together. Whenever we went out it was more of a calm or private place. I didn’t care for the world to know about us. The people we truly loved and cared about knew we were together and that was enough for me.

I watched Trey walk from the door all the way to his booth, wishing he was still mine. In that moment I thought about all the wonderful times Trey and I had together. I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom. The girls looked around in confusion.

“What wrong with her?” said Briana. The girls shrugged their shoulders.

“She’s so dramatic. She always want attention”, Robin said taking a sip of her drink.

“I’m going to go see what’s wrong”, said Debby.

“No, I’ll go”, said Victoria as she quickly made her way to the bathroom. Victoria walked in to see me leaning against the wall.

To Be Continued…